terça-feira, 18 de janeiro de 2011

My Travel Writing Attempt

One day, not that far away, I tried to be a travel writer. In the adequate workshop I was enrolled, stuffed with these great people with whom I shared this event, we were proposed to do our best in writing about a common and fomented experience in Lisbon during one of the days. The common part just reflects the fact that a bunch of creatures all at the same time were consuming Lisbon piece by piece in a street near you. This collection of portions of the city allowed a scathing competition in eloquence, pushed by the appetizing prize of being edited in a travels magazine. To my fellow Portuguese, only because I wrote it in my mother language… ok, and also for those who understand Portuguese, I present my failed attempt…


 

Tasca 28


 

Domingo, quatro da tarde, chove a espaços na praça D. João Bosco, refugio-me parcialmente naquela que é a primeira (ou última, entenda-se) paragem do velho eléctrico de Lisboa, o 28, e aguardo-o. Ele surge, pode dizer-se "barulhento", mas naquela sonoridade agradável de rolar sobre carris que consegue entender-se como quase aconchegante. Chega perto. Uma velhinha apressada a passos curtos quer ser a primeira. Quer o lugar sentado que ainda agora se tornara livre pela saída de uma velhinha de semelhante idade. Consegue. Agora sou em quem entra no mundo do eléctrico 28. Cá dentro, do mundo, os cabelos brancos pertencem a quem é local e não mais faz do que preencher o quotidiano; os mapas são frequentes na mão ou mal dobrados e enfiados numa qualquer bolsa; a música no ar é a diversidade linguística, a campainha e o "barulho"; as conversas cruzadas, os flashes e as fotografias compõem um quadro aprimorado pelos adolescentes que correm atrás e com um saltinho se servem de boleia. Nisto, um indivíduo careca, não local, tira uma foto onde decerto fiquei enquadrado, descontraidamente de cabeça apoiada nos braços enlevados e sustentados nos apoios verticais suspensos disponíveis. Ele, o indivíduo, fala depois com a mulher que o acompanha, dizendo que interpreta expressões faciais… Seria a minha motivo de captura? Adensa-se uma curiosidade que vejo impossível de satisfazer pois ele está de saída no Miradouro de Santa Luzia. Ele, ela, os transportadores de mapas e demais. Há espaço. Há quase quedas no arranque e apercebo-me que nas ruas estreitas percorridas pelos carris lá fora, pessoas encolhem a barriga, encostam-se à parede, acenam com um sorriso nos lábios e cães espreitam à janela. É com esta Graça que saio. A chuva parou.

Depois da azáfama eléctrica, busco a abrangência da cidade no topo de uma das sete colinas, sendo chamado pela Nossa Senhora do Monte, no cimo da Calçada do Monte. Ressalta à vista o espelho do Tejo interrompido ao meio na fotografia pela elevação do Castelo. Imagino lá em baixo a confluência das ruas perdidas de Lisboa para cada uma das pequenas clareiras entre prédios que serão praças. Ao meu lado uma jovem aponta para longe, como quem procura o conforto de um lugar conhecido. Um jovem, de boina, farta barba e roupagem de tonalidades cinzentas interrompidas pelo escape do seu cachecol vermelho, traça seus esquissos desta mesma vista que avisto, mas no seu ângulo. Ele está calmamente concentrado, de pernas soltas, estendidas e sentado no paredão. Talvez um dia tenha honras de ter uma exposição publicitada no 28 tal como a Paula Rego hoje. Desejo-lhe sorte.

Não é com sorte que chego ao meu último destino, apesar de em nada sobressair da restante envolvente geográfica. O número da porta e a rua já estavam encomendados e foi só ter a disposição mental na busca porta a porta. Vejo-me então a chegar à Tasca do Jaime. Apercebo-me agora que é um espaço de Fado à medida que me encosto à ombreira da porta a sentir o cheiro quente a comida. É um espaço estreito mas comprido, de balcão corrido de um lado e mesas do outro. Mesmo ao fundo as mesas prevalecem quando o balcão se acaba, terminando o espaço num pequeno 'L' numa reentrância à direita. As paredes são forradas a azulejos azuis e brancos até à altura dos ombros, daí até ao tecto cobertas de fotografias emolduradas de gente célebre e de outros que nem tanto do lado das mesas; prateleiras de garrafas com um ocasional CD de Fado no intervalo do lado do balcão. As toalhas das mesas com padrão quadriculado de traços grossos também azuis e brancos estão ocupadas e cada restante centímetro de chão vai para o mesmo estado. Aos sentados pede-se que comam enquanto os de pé, querendo, podem ficar-se pelo beber. Para lá do balcão observo uma travessa de pastéis de bacalhau prontos a servir, mas peço apenas ao Jaime uma Ginja de Alcobaça e vejo o meu desejo atendido com prontidão. Quem mo sugeriu foi Hélder Fagulha (foi assim que ele se apresentou, com primeiro e último nome), reformado de 73 anos que todos os dias passa por aqui. De boina verde escura na cabeça, uns olhos azulados, camisa xadrez acinzentada, com um lenço vermelho que brota à vista por entre o aberto do colarinho e casaco de malha, diz-me que de vez em quando também aqui canta pois "alfacinha da Graça tem de saber cantar o Fado". As luzes apagam-se e o silêncio imediatamente instala-se. Uma única voz audível retrata saudade, balanceada pelas cordas da guitarra, mas quando a luz acende de novo volta-se ao convívio familiar que este espaço nos proporciona. Apercebo-me do Hélder já ao fundo que canta de olhos fechados uma desgarrada, com versos ao desafio, e espera por quem lhe responda. Obviamente um novo verso não falta e até o Jaime irrompe por detrás do balcão para dar um ar da sua graça. As pessoas aplaudem, são afáveis, disponíveis, conversadoras e estão aqui para e pelo convívio. A mistura de idades é visível nos rostos, há o contraste entre os lenços "tipo Hélder" e "tipo Árabe", o Português é a língua mais comum, há respeito, come-se, bebe-se e canta-se numa azáfama que poderia ser a do 28, numa hora insuspeita, numa tarde de Domingo.


 

João Prata Antunes

sábado, 16 de outubro de 2010

sexta-feira, 15 de outubro de 2010

My Different Post


No words to be added... just thoughts...

sábado, 9 de outubro de 2010

My Thin Line between Sophisticated and Depressive

By now you should know that I am seated in the floor of my living room side by side with a bottle of wine… The bottle is empty already… Once again I claim freedom of speech and introduce the fact that the bottle was not full when I start this activity… I don't see me as a drunken person… I don't see this as I a bragging situation… I just see this as the way it is… I see pleasure… I see the thin line between a sophisticated environment and a depressive scenario… These lights should be trimmed instead of incur is laziness taking off my shoes, one by one, it is funny once the only way to take them off is one by one and never a higher number because you never have, in most case scenarios, a higher number of shoes to take off in sequence. Never two by two… unless you have a great night endeavoring for entertainment and you are the actor with the major acting role… if you know what I mean once I do not have the intention of being more explicit. This is not the wine talking, is just the current conversation in-between my minds… yes I do have more than one mind… and they constantly struggle about the pieces of garbage I should proclaim and point out in a digital piece of paper. The good part for the green mind is that no arm is done to environment. I am not kidding; I do have a green mind… I hope you all do. No matter it is only awake for five minutes a day… Obviously is not ideal but even if I am extremely demanding I can concede, if I am humble enough to do that, the experiment of not being 100% green once I guess no one is, and 5% green is better than 0%. Oh, poor of spirit those who don't even try to think green. I let myself be dragged outside the scope of this writing project which is being choked by my laziness just by the simple fact that I still have not got and not opened a new fresh bottle of (a different) red wine to continue enhancing this non-alcoholic writing eloquence. And also, the liking to merge in such liquids corpse with my tongue part. I shout about being a French bohemian artist in this last sentence I think… Well I am not… Even if I think about such style… I guess this nonsense words are enough… I should take off my echoing headphones drug, lift up and get that new bottle…

I introduce yourselves to my drunkenness… a healthy one…

sábado, 18 de setembro de 2010

My Laudatory Writing to Perfume

Today I feel like writing. Not necessarily about nothing or anything, which this might be one of the best aspects to write about. This is not my first time. I feel like writing a lot. From anger to despair. Oddly two examples from what I claim detachment. It must be due to alphabetically order and there are several others in between. That must be it. I feel a bit rusty on this. I shall impose to myself a weekly based writing. No, it must be natural. It must flow. Flow like a non-dried river would flow in the middle of any Season. Like the morning breathe which allow us to smell the fresh baked bread coming from somewhere we cannot identify once our senses are still trying to gather. At least as I imagine it would be if I live somewhere around some bakery and not in some street of light where you can inhale the fresh pollution for the morning while the odor of animal feces (ahah…feces…always makes me laugh) embraces you with a cozy welcome to the street. Thank God for the old lady, ok so she maybe is not that old, I am not sure, but she is older than me or at least I hope she is older than me, or poor her, the old lady who lives in the walking odor perfume that inhabits in my building, to be more accurate, in the building in which I also inhabit.

domingo, 14 de março de 2010

My Irresponsible Smile

I don't usually smile, or maybe I do… I guess sometimes I don't really know it anymore and I get confused… I think I like smiling, from heart... Or is it just a pale reflection from others around? I tease and I mock as I proclaim humour, happiness and optimism but how much of that is not just a strong arm wrestling against something I cannot even define? Today I feel like a walking contradiction to those assumptions that I don't even feel the joy while writing... I feel lost in a blended emotional/rational compound and I start thinking that emotionless is from where I should not had left... Oh, I was so glad I left and re-learned to smile and uncontrollable smile... This probably looks like an insane despair once I want to continue smiling even though I might feel that would be irresponsible...

quinta-feira, 4 de março de 2010

My Second Year

João can now seat...

Peacefully...

He grabs his headphones... Finally!

Some time for himself... Press play...

I had these two tiring working days, from 9am (yesterday) to almost 8pm (today) with not a huge amount of sleeping hours, about 4 hours of sleep... and after cleaning kitchen from previous dinners and inclusively having dinner... here I sit... in this so called padded chair with the laptop atop my legs (laptop atop?...is that correct english?...I liked it...)... Suddenly a sad, but beautiful, song starts playing in my iTunes... Portuguese group... The Gift... usually they sing in English, but this one I am hearing is in Portuguese... Fácil de Entender...I am in a quiet, calm, ease state of mind... It feels really good... Just want to close my eyes and leave the purest thoughts flow from each hidden corner of my spirit with no control about any of them... To get lost... Picturing the breathe confronting each single pore in my face, probably even rain drops when lying down in the grass... Today is the day completing my second year and I am far and I am tired... (incomplete writing...)

sexta-feira, 19 de fevereiro de 2010

My Indescribable Truth

Oh yes it is exploding, not literally, but it is, in any way that something indescribable can explode. I know it is too vague or probably too insane but it is what it is, even if it is indescribable or even if it is nothing concrete. I blush and I fade as I boil in confusion with what creates these urges connected with what seems a passion invading my life. My so fucked up rational life shakes easily as a gigantic castle of cards is blown away with the wind. Oh it feels good, so damn good. It almost seems that floating is possible as some passionate teenager in his fifteens. I am considerably lost in my guided/oriented/organized life. I want to feel the world and I want to fill the world. Break the chains and follow the unpredictable toughness with no expectations, building the life... actually not building anything, anything at all, just collecting the experiences and the opportunities with no regrets even if that makes me selfish. So let me be selfish, oh please let me be; while I enjoy loving what can be offered to me so that I can believe in karma once I also childishly believe favours should not be paid back but paid forward. I know I said I am rational. I am not. I should have stayed longer. I love this passion and I thank.

domingo, 24 de janeiro de 2010

My 'Just Because...'

Just because it is echoing inside my mind...

sábado, 29 de agosto de 2009

My Good Vibe


Feels good...

sexta-feira, 24 de julho de 2009

My Arrival

Oh yes, and I arrived... Two glorious weeks fulfilled with people and beer... My writing is now emotional instead of sober, I apologise for that but it is still all so fresh. Not even 10 hours passed and I am nostalgic. I met so many funny people that I miss them already, either in Göttingen or in Lyon and even in some trains during my travelling. I started a list which I pretended to post in the blog, I definitely started but then some people crossed my life which I don't even know the name and it is not fair because the list would be incomplete. I gave those people a bit of me and they gave me a bit of them, it was reciprocal. I met a young star (I hope) female singer; a guy who does underwater rugby (yes I got the same impression...wtf is that?); an Italian girl from Rome, who was reading Dostoiévski, that works on CERN in Genève, and already lived in San Francisco; and a German woman who works in gathering the information for citizen cards (not the Portuguese one, but she knew what we were doing), that already lived in a lot of different places including Tokyo and currently living in Zurich, and also already took the Trans-Siberian... Cool isn't it? One thing these people have in common, they have never been in Portugal... I met even more people and I just mentioned those because I met them during travelling/waiting time. It was really nice to meet everybody, visit my friend and family and meet my friend and family friends :)

This is passionate writing...

quinta-feira, 23 de julho de 2009

My Last Post from Lyon


My last post from Lyon...another river view...La Saone

quarta-feira, 22 de julho de 2009

sexta-feira, 17 de julho de 2009

My Bike


I want to ride my bike...to Lyon

quinta-feira, 16 de julho de 2009

My 'Pause'


Just like superstars...

sábado, 11 de julho de 2009

My First Stop


Koln Hauptbahnhof

sexta-feira, 10 de julho de 2009

My Second Round


Tiny tiny second round...but still a second round...

segunda-feira, 22 de junho de 2009

My Absolute Lack of Interest in the Actual Situation of Something that does not Encourages me to Write the Usual Profuse Stuff

I believe that such auspicious title is the most touching invitation to the reading of the following lines where no surprises can be found. The consequent dilemma is the necessary text extension to force challenging readers to give up already from the begging and to not drag them to a complex working mind episode where from nothing good will result. With the adequate minimum number of lines, the number of people really interested in continuing reduces, at least in a first phase. The curious returns (in a not so further future) full of courage to assault this experience. New ambitions in quantity need to be achieved to eliminate also such possibility so I seek for the number where even the greater believer in the quality of my pure weird thoughts at least hesitates and that will be the exact moment where I place my final mark. This first introductory script is not necessarily introductory to anything and I hope those who felt the need of only start reading see this as an indirect, but most honest advice I can give right now. I do not possess a concern for people reading these words. I honestly don't. Today this post is only a fight against sloth and lack of will in writing in this blog about something and especially in English. I mentally struggle with words I cannot translate, create or reinvent and feel the typical eloquent Portuguese guy in its Benfica training suit desiring to flower violently from me with all the necessary special effects, George Lucas or Spielberg style (randomly selected), and scatter trivial and profuse articulated sounds with meaning, vulgaris words, either spoken or written anywhere. I miss writing in my mother tongue, and I miss it so much that writing some 'fitas' (I just discovered I have no clue how to translate this word to its actual meaning, probably strait stripe of silk fabric), typical for the end of a student academic life, turned out to be refreshing despite all traditional sentimentalisms expressed and which I obviously do not corroborate. I have certainly not yet accomplished the adequate number of lines which is not an obstacle and inclusively it is appealing and interesting only for irrational people. But in any case due to late hours reasoning I end this mild anguish tour around some other satisfactions without reaching any conclusion which necessarily does not have to exist but always everybody expects one, or a moral or a diffuse blended thought where intellectuals (or maybe psychologists) find the kernel of whatever I might have written. Indulgently I say sorry for wasting your time... Please be comfy to insult in the comments section!

sábado, 13 de junho de 2009

My Santos


Typical...

sexta-feira, 15 de maio de 2009

My Night in 'Cidades Impossíveis'

And here, where the first Portuguese words are introduced they mean Impossible Cities but such translation is not used in my title once it is the title of a play I just see hours ago. From my long absence in the blog (I present here my apologies for all the fans and my three followers :) ) I reappear with this urge already flowing through all my veins, all my thoughts until my finger tips due to all the blend of emotions created during my attendance in the audience. It is performed by a bunch of young amateur actors, do not misunderstood the word ‘amateur’ once they are very talented, part of the so called ‘Novo Núcleo Teatro’. Introduction made to the group, back to the play. Obviously I will not present a thorough description of all the action/acts but the first word crossing my mind to describe it, is beautiful. Not in its visual meaning of something that your eyes focus once some messy scenarios are presented, but beautiful in all the humoristic interventions mixed with genuine and personal feelings together with a bit of tenderness and effusive passion. As you mentally travel, in all different scenarios, within yourself, you remember your past trying to invoke it from the deepest hidden moment. Moments that you rarely remember because they were years ago but still are part of you; and the same easy way time presses our experiences deeper they will always define a little bit of you and left a smile on your face when you remember them, just for pure nostalgia...

The music still floating in my head... ‘Look at me...’...